Yeah guys, idk if I really wanna be on DA anymore...I've sorta lost intrest in writing.
I just feel....out of it. Like before I was hyped up for it but now its...idk..it seems like nothing I'm doing is really doing much. Now I know its not about fame or any of that, its about loving what you're doing. That being said I don't love my work all that much, the plots are lazy and the characters are so 2D it hurts to read for me.
Another part is I'm losing my desire for being social, that's been a huge problem for weeks now. Its not anyones fault I just feel a bit...outcasted I suppose. Now whether that be the case or not is up to your own personal feelings.
Next is also a social reason but its more private, I'm not gonna name names because that's unfair and downright mean. The whole situation was my fault from the start and I'll admit that. Eventually it grew even more and then this person blocked me (and they were justified to do so). I'm trying to be subtle here because I care for this person still, and I'm sure they don't wanna deal with my bullshit as far as this journal goes. Anyway, you know who you are if you're bothering to read this. Now this one was more personal and not the biggest reason as to why I'm leaving, that was more of a....personal update? Again if the person is reading this I'm sorry and hopefully you aren't feeling attacked by this.
Anyway, this is also something I've been thinking about for a long time. I'm thinking about going into the military, whether that becomes something I wanna do for sure or not is up in the air. I've checked on requirements and I believe when I'm of age to join I'll meet basic ground troop standards. So I guess I could signup? And I know the risks involved, and I've thought about them a lot. I've asked myself "Is this really something I wanna do?" and....I think the answer is yes. Now before anyone freaks out I have not made my final choice, if I do I might not even tell you guys. I'm not even of age to go in yet, so I gotta wait still.
Now given all those reasons, idk whether to say I wanna go on Hiatus, shut down my account or just stay here and see what happens. So....I guess we'll see what happens